allowing God to be "it"

I'm convinced that Jesus will be anything and everything we allow Him to be for us. Concerning the satisfaction, joy, peace, and fulfillment that He is able to bring into our lives, He is only limited in the level He brings to our lives by what we choose to let Him be. And He's only limited in that way because He established free will and knows that we are only happy with receiving something we, on some level and in some way, already desire and want. We choose according to what we want most. If we choose to sin, it is because we want something that sin represents or something we think that sin will get us. If we choose to obey God--even if we don't want to do the particular action obedience requires--our strongest desire in that situation is to obey God. That is what we want to do, either because we recognize the intrinsic value of the obedient action or because we believe God deserves our loyalty and efforts. Demonstrated and lived belief in most (maybe all?) cases has a huge want- or desire-driven component.

So God and Christ is (I use the singular purposefully) able to be anything we allow Him to be, He wants to be everything we allow Him to be, but He will only go as far as we let Him. This is in part because He wants us to want Him that much. He wants us to recognize that He has and is everything we will or could ever want. Our satisfaction is tied to His in a way I don't think we ever really understand. And that simply reflects the reality and truth of who God is and who He has made us to be.

So much of my worry, anxiety, and stress comes from the "lacks" I perceive in my life--relationally, vocationally, monetarily, etc. And I am in a constant (though not consistent) state of surrender, continuing to offer those desires and situations up to God while asking that His will (not my moment's will) be done. I think, though, that there is a deeper surrender requiring more than that. I think that deeper surrender includes me asking God to literally be those things for me. In doing so I give Him permission to be even more of Himself in my heart and life, to expand, to stretch out into and fill all the dark cracks and corners that I had assumed were "earth-bound" needs and not something God could be for me. (I realized He could provide fulfillment for them, but I didn't think He could be the fulfillment.)

Trials are often the only way we realize how God can be our fulfillment in a way that we had only preserved for worldly satisfaction. For instance, security. I fall into the trap of assuming that the combination of enough money, a steady job, and a place of my own brings security. And today God really convicted me that even though I have none of those three things, I am no less secure than when I had them in the past. And in that moment I realized that this is a perfect opportunity for me to give God permission to be Security in my life. I asked Him to be that for me and for Him to show me in some way how He is my Security, how that looks in the way I live my life and how it helps me move through the deep, dark waters. But I had to be without that security before I could realize just how much God can be that for me. I had to want it, not have it, give up my demand for it, choose to let God choose when to provide it, realize God is it, realize that God needs me to give Him permission to be it, then ask Him to be it in my life. FUN PROCESS.

So this morning I just really like the thought that God will be (and is ready to be) anything and everything I allow Him to be. That's kind of exciting.